Missing Misty Upham

Miisty Upham

Misty said to me “Dad, every time a rape victim comes forward to get justice they become the cause of the matter!” This was not the first time Misty was raped and harassed by an Executive/Producer/Director/Actor etc. And you know who you are!

She is wearing a Teal Blue Dress. Teal is the color for Sexual Assault Awareness. I don’t need to rewrite what has already been written. I have done what I do best, wrote a song about something that really touches my heart.  So that something positive can be done with the pain. But before you hear the song, read more about Missing Misty Upham.

https://www.hollywoodlanews.com/misty-upham-raped-2013-golden-globes/

Ellen Page today put out a statement about the humiliation she suffered at the hands of director Brett Ratner. Among the things she mentioned within her statement is the alleged rape of Misty Upham that her father Charles Upham posted about on Facebook on October 15.”

Here is his post:

The recent backlash with regard to Harvey Weinstein’s sexual allegations is blowing up like a NAPA Valley firestorm leaving a trail of victims in its wake. The smoke of this scandal can be seen through out the entertainment industry as many Hollywood insiders release a collective gasp. (Like you didn’t know this was going on!) The only thing bigger than the Weinstein media apocalypse is the hypocrisy that existed since the 1890’s when the casting couch, I mean movie camera was invented. Sure you now have found a sexual harassment poster boy in Weinstein that we can martyr to will ease the conscience of high society for a while. But this is not an isolated incident! This is an institutional problem that exists in in many Organizations and Corporate America including Religious Orders, Law Enforcement, Politics, Education, Federal, State and local Governments. The victims are not just women; they include men, elderly, mentally ill, children (male and female) of all races and even some animals.

My daughter, Misty Upham, was a victim of rape by a Weinstein Executive in 2013 at the Golden Globe Awards. The rapist forced her into the men’s room and had his way while other men in formal wear cheered him on as if he were chugging a beer in a contest. As Misty made the walk of shame back to the event, the Exec was given high fives, bragging rights and another notch in his Weinstein Co. belt. What should have been an auspicious occasion for Misty turned into a nightmare of pain, humiliation, fear and anxiety? Her mom and I pleaded with her to press charges since she still has the torn green dress she wore (Photo Above) with the DNA all over it. Misty was afraid to pursue charges because she knew Harvey Weinstein could protect his constituency and ruin her existence. Misty’s experience with Harvey Weinstein left her with the impression that he was a powerful man with many influential connections and could make people disappear. Once while riding in a limo with Quentin Tarantino, Harvey Weinstein and his assistant, somewhere between Salt Lake City and Park City, Utah, the assistant interrupted Weinstein and Tarantino’s conversation in a matter of urgent business; at which point Harvey Weinstein ordered the driver to stop and subsequently kicked his assistant out of the car in the middle of no where during a snow storm amidst subzero temperatures. Misty commented, “What if he freezes to death?” Weinstein retorted “ Somebody will come along and pick him up!” How could anyone expect a sincere investigation when the Weinstein’s company commander and chief is also a perpetrator? Misty said to me “Dad, every time a rape victim comes forward to get justice they become the cause of the matter!” This was not the first time Misty was raped and harassed by an Executive/Producer/Director/Actor etc. And you know who you are!

How many times have you heard the defense say things like: “She slept around with everyone.” or “She was smiling and flirting while being accosted!” or “She was dressed like a slut!” and “She knew what she was getting into but left with him anyway!” All of a sudden the rape victim become the blame in everyone’s eyes. This has been the trend now amongst Police Officers, Judges, Defenders even Prosecutors and witnesses alike. The rapist is not just a man thing either; this exercise of empowerment exists among every gender, ethnicity, age, sexual orientation and social class. The characteristic traits of these criminals are usually recognizable from childhood: A Bully, Socially Enabled, Possesses a Sense of Entitlement and Justified by partisan social circles. Sounds a lot like MANIFEST DESTINY (Google It). In many cases the crime becomes a matter of opinion and the rapist becomes the victim. It is no surprise that many rape victims stay silent. Most victims don’t report such crimes because they believe nothing will be done.

In the course of time the majority of the genders has developed a natural affection for the opposite sex or the same sex. In the ritual of courtship you may find yourself attending to your esthetic qualities in order to attract you mate. If this includes dressing provocatively, wearing makeup, flirting or even participating in a conversation that could lead to consummation. So what! That’s what people do! But nowhere in that ritual has the implied meaning been embedded that rape is ok. No means no! People are looking for a lasting relationship that is founded in love, trust and affection. Do you think a woman or her parents would want to have a relationship and have children with a person who raped her? Or would any parent brag on the fact that their child was best rapist in the family?

If Harvey Weinstein has become the poster boy of Sexual Harassment among the rich and powerful then Native American Women should exemplify the most disregarded rape victims in the Americas. According to the Violence Against Women Act of 1994 (VAWA) Indigenous Women have the highest rates of uninvestigated violent sex and abuse crimes among women per capita. Federal government studies have consistently shown that American Indian women experience much higher levels of sexual violence than other women in the U.S. Data gathered by the U.S. Department of Justice indicates that Native American and Alaskan Native women are more than 2.5 times more likely to be raped or sexually assaulted than women in the USA in general. First Nations women in Canada and Native American women in Border States like Minnesota and North Dakota have become the targets of commercial sex trade with little or no intervention from law enforcement. An intrinsic effort on the part of victims and advocacy groups was necessary to raise awareness so that Judicial, Legislative bodies and Politicians would be shamed into action on the behalf of the Native communities.

I know there are many people that will turn a blind eye, wallow in apathy or even entertain the thought of joining the ranks of sex abusers. Before you do I hope you recognize the emotional harm, life long pain and humiliation that these type of crimes bring to their victims; before you have to learn your lesson by experiencing the same type of abuse in some prison cell yourself.

Now listen to the song Missing Misty Upham by Tchiya Amet

“My name is Misty Upham (age 12), and someday you will know that name as the best living Native American actress.”

…but 20 years later, with her star on the rise after having acted in films with the likes of Meryl Streep, Julia Roberts, and Benicio Del Toro…and receiving an Independent Spirit Award nomination in 2008 for Best Supporting Actress (“Frozen River”)…her lifeless body was discovered at the end of a ravine in Washington State in 2014. She had battled depression and alcoholism in recent years, but what has remained puzzling is that her case has never been solved. Her father, Charles Upham, seeks to find answers in a documentary he’s producing and raising money for called “11 Days: The Search For Misty Upham”. #ColorYourVision


RepostBy @terraincognitamedia:
“TW: rape.
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This is Misty Upham. She was a promising young Native American starlet who was allegedly raped at the 2013 golden globe awards by an executive from an infamous distribution company in the men’s bathroom, WHILE A GROUP OF MEN CHEERED HER RAPIST ON. She never came forward for fear of her career and her life. About a year later she went missing and was later found dead. It was ruled a suicide, even though the autopsy stated that the cause of death was several blunt force trauma injuries to her head and torso. Her name was not spoken at the Golden Globes this year, and I think it is important that people know who she is. This picture is from the night she was allegedly raped, she was wearing that green dress. She had the green dress at the time she disappeared. The dress had DNA evidence on it. #goldenglobes#timesup #jezebel#harveyweinstein#quentintarantino #mistyupham#sayhername @oprah #hollywood#weinsteincompany #rapeawareness#rainn
https://www.cbsnews.com/…/juliette-lewis-misty-upham-feare…/

regram @yaaaschef @indigenousgoddessgang”
(via #InstaRepost @EasyRepost)

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Juliette Lewis: Misty Upham feared being murdered

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Upham Family’s Shocking Statement: ‘Misty Was Murdered by Two Men’

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I am still in shock that the same week that I spoke out/posted about being raped by Neil Tyson,  Misty was missing, and running for her life, because someone found out that she still had that teal blue dress with DNA specimens on it. Perhaps this is why I had to write the song. I know that it was given to me by one of Our Lakota Ancestors.

This was her last tweet….

Here is the video slideshow with the song.

 
It is Good to Share Knowledge and Truth. Even when it is Tragic and Sad.

Aho.

Tchiya Amet El Maat

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From First Base to Rape

In response to an article by Teresa Jusino:

What Aziz Ansari’s “Apology” Says About How Men View Their Encounters With Women

https://www.themarysue.com/aziz-ansari-apology/

This is a very interesting article, because it deals with first base that unfortunately some men take to mean home run. Even at my age and after all I have experienced, even saying “take it slow”, “I really like you, but lets wait til we get to know each other better”, “let’s go to couples counseling before going further,” things can still go too fast. Even if you say “not now”, the very thing you do not want, is what you get. Then you are stuck with trying to transform this violation into a relationship. But in reality, it was a violation. It will always feel like a violation. No matter how much you like the person, no matter how pleasurable, it was still against your wishes…. and can never give you a real relationship.

What do we as women have to do before our feelings wishes intentions are heard and respected? Obviously keeping women covered from head to toe does not make things better. Why does kissing, dancing, affection, a conversation, an energetic connection or attraction, a glass of wine or a beer, a glass of water, give a man the right to TAKE what could eventually be offered with love, integrity and consciousness? Why is this behavior accepted tolerated and yet not discussed? Why are people looking forward to movies where this scene is played out over and over but not addressed in society? Why are rapists in public office? Making movies? Running planetariums and talking about the Cosmos on television? Because we live in a #rapeculture . Because the average person is addicted to violence and enjoys the privilege of convenience that comes about due to the suffering of others. Because the average spiritually enslaved person is so jaded, so disconnected from Spirit that they are able to block out the pain of their global family members. Do we need to take a witness or a referee when we decide to be alone with a man?

Basically, we go against ourselves in that moment out of fear of what that boy will do if you actually punch him or kick him or just keep saying no. He could get angry, or stop talking to you altogether. If he is not hearing you, then maybe you go along with it so that he will stop HARASSING you, or might you get raped, or end up dead. Sometimes after reporting rape, especially if it was by a celebrity, it gets much worse and you end up dead at the hands of authorities trying to keep you silent like #MistyUpham. Or maybe you just accept a glass of water, with no interest in sex or affection, and because you have been rendered unconscious, are not even in a position where you can say, ” No way in hell do I want to have sex with you. You are ugly and gross. Do not touch me.”

I want you to see that it only takes one second to go from “Not Tonite” to DEAD ON ARRIVAL, because we cannot control men once the monster in them has been activated. This is what needs to change, from birth, we need to raise boys to be Actual Men, not predators. But these days, sexual predators control every aspect of the game in this rape culture. For Women, there is nowhere to run. Fortunately in this day and time, for Rapists and Sexual Predators, there is nowhere to hide either.

For more info,

End the Silence, End the Violence Chapter 6: Austin, Texas 1983-1984: I Survived RAPE by Neil de Grasse Tyson; The Blue Lotus Speaks!

https://tchiya.wordpress.com/2014/10/08/end-the-silence-end-the-violence-chapter-6-austin-texas-1983-1984-the-blue-lotus-speaks/

The Blue Lotus Speaks Chapter 5: OBERLIN FUCKING COLLEGE

https://tchiya.wordpress.com/2014/08/08/the-blue-lotus-speaks-chapter-5-oberlin-fucking-college/

The Blue Lotus Speaks: END THE SILENCE, END THE VIOLENCE

https://tchiya.wordpress.com/the-blue-lotus-speaks-end-the-silence-end-the-violence/

Tchiya Amet El Maat

Who is the Blue Lotus and why does she speak? The Blue Lotus is the Collective Consciousness of All the Sadness and Sense of Loss from The Womb that holds the memories and stories of My Bloodline and all of My Past Lives. It is the Voice of ALL Wombs that know violation. She is Speaking because she can no longer carry the pain and it must be released. This Voice, This Song must be heard. She sings in Ancient Tongues and Languages. She brings Healing and Consciousness that becomes the Oneness. Hotep

HeruScopes©: Raising Sexual Assault Awareness, and Healing from it, is in the Stars!

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Today is December 2, 2014.

OM RA IMHOTEP. THE SUN MOVES INTO OPHIUCHUS ON NOVEMBER 30.

When the Imhotep Portal is open, November 30-December18, when the Sun is in Ophiuchus, there is a tremendous opportunity for healing, growth, and enlightenment. The effects of this can be felt globally. When one is also aligned with the cosmic forces known as Sedna and Chiron during this time, the healing potential is enhanced and increased. In 2014, the spotlight is on SEXUAL ASSAULT AWARENESS. I refer to this as SAA. Saa is a Kemetic term for Knowledge with Feeling. Wisdom with Understanding.

 

Sun in Ophiuchus FROM ASTROLOGY13.COM

 

Ophiuchus is the 13th constellation along the ecliptic, the 13th sign of the Zodiac of the HeruScopes© and other sidereal systems. For more information  on Ophiuchus, visit
Celestial Wisdom: True Zodiac has 13 Signs. Is Ophiuchus in your chart?

The sidereal astrologers use the actual motions of the Sun and Planets along the ecliptic. The Western or Babylonian system is completely man made, and is based upon the Earth’s orbit around the Sun, having nothing at all to do with stars . Except for the Sun of course!.They simply named each section of the earth’s orbit around the Sun after a constellation along the ecliptic, leaving out Ophiuchus.

HeruScopes© is an original sidereal system, coming from a Kemetic perspective. Kemet is the Ancient African Egyptian (Indigenous to Nubia and Nile Valley) name for the land, culture, and her people. HeruScopes © Handbook and Guide 2014 for details.

Why do I state that Ra Imhotep is an opening for global healing and sexual assault awareness? Don’t we officially have the month of April to address sexual assault?

You can view the original post on this subject from the New Moon in Scorpio from last week:

The Blue Lotus Speaks: HeruScope© for Ip Sesheta
(Sidereal Scorpio New Moon) 2014

ALL SIGNS POINTING TOWARDS A CYCLE OF ADDRESSING, AND HEALING FROM, SEXUAL ASSAULT AND DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. 

Let’s take a momemt and review the HeruScope for this portal:

Om Ra Imhotep.

At HeruScopes,The Cosmic Force known as Imhotep represents the ability of humankind to heal and rise above our lower nature, especially our sexual nature. To rise above the sting of passion and desire that Scorpio can bring. To elevate our consciousness.

Rho Ophiuchi

 

In the illustration below, Ophiuchus is seen to be wrestling with a snake between his legs. This represents the ability of humanity to become untangled from our lower nature.  This is symbolized even further by the Hero stomping on the back of the Scorpion, thus stamping out the lower nature, such as oassions and desires. In other words, the fetters of Set, the Ego.

Ophiuchus

 

Imhotep has his own symbology, that is still used for the healing arts and professions to this day: The Caduceus. The Dual Snakes represent Aset and Nebt Het, the dual Goddesses of Truth of above and below, Heaven and Earth. They are cosmic forces that are here to assist us as we obtain Nehast, Spiritual Enlightenment.

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OM ASAR ASET NEBT HET. OM MAATI MAAKHERU. 

 

Heru son of Aset and Asar, and Djehuty making adorations to the Djed-Pillar representing Asar from the coffin of the God’s Father of Amon and Priest of Hermonthis, NespanetjerenpeRa, 945-718 bc, now in the Brooklyn Museum

 

 

Aritu (Chakras) and Caduceus Relationship

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Once we are able to take control of our lower nature, purify and activate our Aritu, our Chakras, thanks to Ra Imhotep, we now focus our intention and our attention to the other cosmic forces that are present during this Portal Opening of SAA.

 

OM SESHETA  APIS:  Full Moon on December 6 in Sidereal Taurus.

from the old farmer’s almanac

“December’s Full Moon is called the Full Cold Moon. It is the month when the winter cold fastens its grip and the nights become long and dark.

This full Moon is also called the Long Nights Moon by some Native American tribes.

The Moon is full on December 6 at 7.27 am est”

Time for building nurturing and healing systems for our communities. Initiating Self Care Practices. This is an excellent time to write in one;’s journal. If you do not currently have one, this is the time to begin.

The Moon is in Taurus from December 5 thru December 7. It will spend a few hours in ASAR (ORIION), leading the way for transformation and rebirth. Renewal.

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Mercury in Ophiuchus December 3 thru 14, then moves on to PI MAERE (Sagittarius).

Powerful time for communications about healing. Standing in your Truth, and Speaking your Truth. At this moment, I am overcome with intense emotions and devotional feelings and living in awe at the harmony and synchronistically of the Divine. The alignment is beyond weds or description. I will just post a few images and move on….

END THE SILENCE. END THE VIOLENCE. THE BLUE LOTUS IS SPEAKING TO US.

Mercury djehuty caudecus

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#EndTheSilence  #BeenRapedNeverReported  #BlueLotusSpeaks

 

To learn more about Djehuty, visit

HeruScopes © Handbook and Guide 2014

HeruScopes © Celestial Update: Aspolia 2014 Full Moon and The Portal Of Djehuty

End the Silence, End the Violence Chapter 6: Austin, Texas 1983-1984, including Neil de Grasse Tyson; The Blue Lotus Speaks!

Dua to my Spiritual Preceptors, Sebai Maa and Seba Dja.
Here is another resource at egyptianyoga.om
THE KYBALION BOOK PROJECT

HETHERU IMHOTEP Even Venus is in Ophiuchus now, up until the end of the Fiull Moon, December 7.

More confirmation that now is the time to raise awareness, understanding and knowledge about the issue of rape and Sexual Assault. HetHeru, the Great Goddess of Beauty and the Life Force Energy. The Divine Mother Calling out to us for Healing in alignment with the Sun, Mercury and the communications we will receive during this Cold yet Nurturing Full Moon this weekend.

 

RaPhan Maat

learning lessons in life by either aligning with Maat, or going against Maat. There are 2 Roads in Life, which one will Humanity choose? RIGHTEOUSNESS OR UNRIGHTEOUSNESS? WISDOM AND ENLIGHTENMENT OR IGNORANCE? Where is the Justice Of Maat. Even if it is the Ariyu or Karma, or Soul Contract of the people involved, THAT DOES NOT MAKE IT RIGHTEOUS IN THIS TIME. Then again, all is in Divine Right Order. Very difficult to comprehend this one….

PiCheus Sekhmet for rest of month and beyond.
Wisdom and Expansion in the areas of Healing and the Life Force energy. Learning how to tame and control our own Sekhemn or Kundalini. Learning about our own healing abilities.

Heru PiCot Sahu
Making  efforts and taking courageous action to save water:  What should be our most cherished resource on Earth, is sadly, our most misused. Both Emotions and Higher consciousness are activated and utilized for the highest good.. Even going so far as taking heroic stance against corruption.

Heru/Uranus, represnts the Hero. Heroine i all of us. Each one of us is the Shero/Hero of our OWN myth.

What does Water symbolize? The Divine Feminine. The Goddess. The Womb. Yemaya.  Now that we are in Ophiuchus, aligned with a potent healing energy. NOW IS THE TIME TO RAISE AWARENESS AND ADDRESS THE ISSUE OF SEXUAL ASSAULT. RAPE. DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. And not only raise awareness, but also, how to heal from it, and how to prevent. Education.

Asar Pi Maere
Through Mid-December and beyond.
Transformation is achieved through expansion, beyond any preconceived notions, opinions, limitations, or beliefs.

Chiron KuUrKU
Self healing through the power of water. How ironic: the water that can heal we the people is the thing the corporations enjoy destroying the most. This is the time to heal the water and to protect the water. Now is the time to learn and gain knowledge from the water. Chiron is in the sign of KuUrKu until  December 25, then moves into PiCot Sahu, another watery sign. During this time,  emotions , energy in motion, can be healed and purified,  with water, and vice versa.  Yes, remembering the work of Dr. Emoto and the effect we can have on water.

Sedna Apis
Sedna is the archetype for survivor of assault and family violence. Turning poison into medicine. Sedna: represents overcoming Trauma and betrayal through self love and forgiveness. Fortunately, with the energy of Apis, we are loved, nurtured, adaptable, eloquent, and establishing value. WE have along time to work with this energy, so let’ do this! All the signs are pointing to this time as being the time for facing and heralding from sexual assault. Find a way to transform the predominant culture from a rape culture to a healing culture. This is what Imhotep/Ophiuchus is all about: a shift in humanity towards natural healing and confronting and conquering our lower sexual nature. NOW IS THE TIME!!!

 WE ARE TALKING ABOUT THE VIOLATIONS OF THE GREAT MOTHER, OF MOTHER EARTH, OF ALL WOMAN, AND THE DIVINE FEMININE PRINCIPLE THAT LIVES IN ALL OF US! 

from falcon astrology.com

“Here is what Dr. Kathleen Jenks says about Sedna. “When victimization moves to the goddess-level as it does with Sedna, (it) signals us that there’s an extra depth of compassion for the abused. It also tells us that this goddess-archetype has the wherewithal to make a difference and empower that person whose (planets) are resonating with Sedna’s sphere of power. Sedna may come to represent an extreme terrain of the unconscious, one where issues of power, authority and respect for life do not separate from a respect for oneself.”

Sedna was discovered on November 14th, 2003 at 17 Taurus 58. Hapi Anniversary!!!!

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ASTEROIDS: raising awareness of the Divine Feminine Principle.

Aset/Ceres in Imhotep until December 30: The Divine Mother is the Ultimate Healer and Nurturer.

Maat/Pallas Athena in Uraeus/ Serpens,  until Mid-December: dealing with one’s sexual nature, health. The serpent also represents the twin goddesses, Aset and Nebt Het. There is so much symbolism with the Uraeus, that I cannot go into right now…The Uraeus is associated with the energy of Virgo due to the proximity. Balance in consciousness of the material realm and the spiritual realm.  Being aware of both realities at the same moment.

Juno is in another serpent, the water serpent, Hydra!
More messages and confirmation that this is a time of healing from sexual assault, and obtaining Justice in the process.

Vesta:  Pi Maere
Time for expanding our relationships, possibly leading to travel. or taking on leadership roles.

 

OM RA IMHOTEP. OM SESHETA SEDNA APIS.
OM ASET DJEHUTY HETHERU IMHOTEP. 

This weekend, with the Full Moo in Sidereal Taurus, and so many signs in Ophiuchus, provides the perfect opportunity for healing rituals dealing with the Chakras, the Womb, the Divine Feminine, and Water. Healing for all that have been affected by the #rapeculture that has taken over this planet. The Continuous Raping of Mother Earth and all of Her children. Including Mike Brown, and his mother and family. Including each one of us.. Offer your prayers for healing for all survivors of rape, seal assault, and domestic violence.

 

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Thank you for talking the time to soak in this wisdom and information. My intention is that you will spend sometime in reflection and prayer during the Full Moon. And if you are on your healing journey, may this also bring you alignment, comfort and peace.
Also, please ask to join the Facebook group: Blue Lotus Speaks. 

 

You can also join the mailing list here:
Cosmic Sound Healing Mailing List

 

M Mer N Khut. Hotep. Tchiya Amet El Maat, S.E.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

End the Silence, End the Violence! The Blue Lotus Speaks: Chapter 2

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Please Read Chapter 1: End the Silence, End the Violence: The Blue Lotus Speaks on Tchiya Amet Day

This tells the story of how The Blue Lotus Speaks  came to be….

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So, obviously, Chapter 2 will contain the update on the special moments of this healing weekend.

 

As I mentioned previously, when I found the Proclamation for Tchiya Amet Day from Mayor Kirk Watson in a box in January 2014, I really had no idea what it represented or where it might take me. When I began my 40 Day detox, I was pretty close to rock bottom emotionally, spiritually, financially, creatively, even mentally, So grateful to have my health! I just could not get things going in a positive direction. I did not know what to do with my music, and I certainly did not know how to take my healing journey to the next level.

 

Well, that little document manifested an amazing musical wellness event, and an action that I have wanted to take for 30 years, but didn’t even know it is what I wanted to do! LOL!

What follows are photos from the weekend.

 

During the course of this weekend  adventure, there has been sooooo much healing. Including, my healing with Austin Texas Hill Country. I swam in Barton Springs, Krause Springs and Deep Eddy. I was able to let go of so much pain, that I was able to fall in love with Austin all over again. I was able to call upon happy times when I frequented these swimming holes with my family. I wasn’t sad one bit! I was totally stunned and blissed out at the same time. Those waters are so healing and loving and nurturing. Wasn’t even cold compared to the snow melt Eel River of Mendo County! LOL!!

On Thursday June 5 I visited the astronomy dept at UT Austin 16th floor, where I was once a grad student. I went to see what I had missed. The place looks the same after 30 years. It was amazing. My emotions were fluctuating rapidly: happy to not be locked in a cubicle, yet sad that I did not become an astronomer/astronaut. I ran into a former professor. I took a photo outside what was once my office. I cried A LOT! Whew. release. Exhale.

 

I also visited the place where I had the encounter. In other words, where my so called friend, colleague, mentor, and like a brother to me slipped me mickey when I went to visit him one day after class, just like any other normal day. The building is no longer there. They have built something brand new and different. The tree is still there. The tree knows what happened. Even some ravens came to rest in the tree.

This Tree remembers what happened…and so do I…

 

On the street where we lived when we began our family…the actual house is no longer there, but the memories are still ever present.

Also went swimming. Ran into so many fiends that I had not seen in well, 13 years!

Sisters Eternal

 

with Harve Franks at Barton Springs

 

 

 

Friday I went to visit SafePlace Shelter for survivors of sexual assault and domestic violence. While I was walking towards the address, I passed by a beautiful Teal Blue apartment complex. I knew I was in the right place, I have never seen an apartment building painted the colors of sexual assault awareness before. TEAL! The apartment building is the transitional housing. Inside the emergency shelter, it felt like community housing, with individual families sharing group space pods. There is a full and complete school all the way up to high school. There is a commissary, so the residents never have to leave the facility. Much of the food is provided via donations. All of this makes it easier for the children to adjust and feel comfortable in the midst of chaos. There is also a separate residence for men. Unfortunately, men experience sexual assault too, and it is reported even less than by women.

 

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Our Services

SafePlace is ending sexual and domestic violence through safety, healing, prevention and social change.

 

Didn’t feel appropriate to take photos, but here is video clip from the website…

with Ari after the Tour of the Facilities

 

I was able to reconnect with dear friends that knew me well before I started to play music professionally. I was able to see who I was as a younger woman, and reconnect with her/my younger self, as well. So many good feelings were being blocked by painful and negative memories. I even got to play music with my former life partner, an unexpected bonus that brought even more healing to the event on June 7.

 

Here is our first Mercury Retrograde Experience: Oya showed up (Yoruba Ancestor of Storms and Wind) and blew one of the tents UP OVER THE STAGE. FLIPPED IT RIGHT OVER THE STAGE, LANDED UPSIDE DOWN, BEHIND THE STAGE, PRESSING ON A POWER LINE. WHEW!

 

But that did not stop the show….

Isistren

 

 

Listening to Isistren

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There was a Cosmic Sound Healing demonstration and Akeleah led us in a beautiful guided meditation. During the Musical Wellness event on Tchiya Amet Day, we even had a discussion circle. It was very powerful. We held a conversation about sexual assault. There were people of all ages, including a beautiful young family. Voices Against Violence was on hand to get the communications started. (Let me remind you that this event took place on the first day of this current Mercury Retrograde period…) It was sacred. It was real. It was the beginning of a future dialogue and the beginning of a movement. What I learned from this conversation is that prevention is key.

Synchronistically, there was another event with a similar theme: “Seeds of Hope – A Resource Fair and Celebration for Survivors of Domestic Violence.” | June 7, 2014
Austin City Hall 2 PM-6 PM  held on the same day and time! Next year, we will join forces for an even more successful event.

 

 

During a Sunday Rising session at Ecstatic Dance in Austin (?? Who knew that this powerful sacred form of group prayer began in Texas???) I was showered with downloads about what to do with my music and all of my creative skills and efforts. Even what to do with my life energy from that moment on. It was amazing! Just like my coach Jeffrey Van Dyk from bigvisionbusiness always says: “Whatever is in the way, IS the way!” Let me tell you, my trauma was in the way for 30 years! AND IT IS NO LONGER IN THE WAY: IT HAS BEEN TRANSFORMED INTO THE WAY. TRANSFORMING MY POISON INTO MEDICINE FOR THE ENTIRE PLANET. Now all that remains is to watch this Teal Blue Lotus Blossom unfold…..

Teal Heals…

You might be wondering how did I come to choose the TEAL Blue Lotus?

Blue Lotus from Kemet; symbolizes consciousness, enlightenment.  Symbolizes the throat chakra, yes, and also the womb chakra. They are so connected you know….Blue? Purifying the consciousness, knowledge. When doing womb clearings, I utilize blue cosmic energy to unify and renew the womb to her original state with every breath. The throat chakra of course is a beautiful turquoise blue color. The color for SAA (Sexual Assault Awareness) is TEAL! Saa is a Kemetic word that translates into knowledge with feeling. Put all of this together, and you can see how the name came to be….THE BLUE LOTUS SPEAKS: END THE SILENCE, END THE VIOLENCE.

So, what happened on Monday? MORE SWIMMING! The Barton Springs Pool is still amazing….so healing…

 

Next, I took a trip to the Austin Police Department, where I proceeded to file a report against my assailant, yes 30 years after the encounter.

 

when I first got to station

felt better once I realized what I was doing there…

It was just something that I had to do in order to move forward. I have waited for so long to make sure that I was taking the right action. This entire event manifested from my pure heart, from a pure desire for healing and to see justice. there is much confusion about whether or not I can press charges. There was no statute of limitation on rape at the time, nor were there any DNA samples. I am not attached to the outcome. So we shall have to see how this plays out. I feel so much better now that I have “come out” about the assault. I feel so inspired to focus my efforts towards ending the silence and ending the violence.

At the end of the Circle, Erin of VAV asked us what we can commit to do to help raise awareness about sexual assault in the coming week. I answered that I was going to the police station. DID THAT!

I also have made the commitment to wear TEAL everyday, even if it is “just” toenail polish. Accents. Now I see teal everywhere. And you know what? It really helps me get thru tuff moments. i am not sure if all of the people that wear teal are aware of the symbolism, but it doesn’t matter. It makes me feel better whenever I see it. It reminds me that I am not alone. It reminds me that each time we speak up, raise awareness, listen to someone, hold space for someone, each time we speak to a youth about self respect, prevention, setting boundaries, self care, we are making a difference. It is healing for myself and others, and it feels good to heal the pain instead of just dealing with it.  Next step will be to receive training as an advocate for survivors of sexual assault. In the very near future, I will begin leading a group of women out here on the Rez that are all survivors of sexual assault and/o domestic violence.

 

warrior
this little photo was taken April 28, 2010 when I first decided to face my fears. This was the first time I took action, and confronted the rapist. Special Thanks to Sabryyah that inspired me both times to take action! I am wearing a teal shaw, war paint, and my feathers that I only wear for ceremony and/or performances. The very next day, my mom told me she had ovarian cancer. It felt as if  my clearing of my womb space affected my mother’s womb space. It was just too toxic. Now that she has made her transition, it is time to get back to cleaning my womb space, and to help other survivors to do the same.

Thank Goodness for Cosmic Sound Healing.
Austin, get ready for June 7, 2015…

I’LL BE BAAAACK!

Ankh, Udja, Seneb. Life, Vitality and Health!
Love Never Ends. It changes, and it changes us.

Love always, Tchiya